2012 Year in Review

what an interesting year this has been. and this is a very self-centered (literally) post, so if you have absolutely no interest in my life whatsoever (i doubt anyone does, really), this would be a good place to click the 'x' on this tab.

because im hungry and my parents are here, let's just make this quick for now. let's see:

1. i turned 19, but mentally, im either 23 or 15, depending on the day/mood/circumstance.
2. i had a clearer idea who my real friends are, so i ditched those who arent.
3. i learned how to make acquaintances more easily. and i can safely say im a lot better at making small talks now.
4. i went behind my parents back to go to more shows, and Soundwave, and i had a fucking amazing time in general. well, 'carpe diem' was my only justification.
5. i learned that its harder and harder to genuinely like most people now.
6. i discovered 'real' hardcore. and i love it. not all of it. but enough to convert me.
7. i discovered Chuck Palahniuk and David Sedaris, who both quickly became my favourite authors. (by the way, Haunted is my book of the year -purely because its the most disturbing shit i ever read and therefore i love it to pieces.)
8. i discovered heaps of new talented bands. or just talented bands.
9. i have my ups and downs, but i gained a significant amount of confidence and reassurance.
10. i finished year 2, and decided that i hate groupwork and fobs.
11. i started implementing some marketing knowledge into my tumblr and made the 'correct' gifs --i love the bands, for fucking sure, but hey, i dont mind getting notes and heaps new followers.
12. i made a new best friend and made amends with my old best friend --they both became two of the most important people in my life right now, and i love them dearly.
13. i dipped my feet in the "organisations & volunteering" pond, and although i honestly think they're a lovechild between virtue and lame, they do, as much as i hate admitting it, give me a handful of experience (that better be fucking useful for my future endeavours.)
14. i got my first job as a store bitch in a bakery where i worked and loathed like crazy. now i can really respect those in the service industry more, so no regrets.
15. i did my first internship too, in that promo department, and i got to implement some more marketing. and i learned to coexist without sacrificing my ideals and being subtle about it.
16. i learned that i highly prefer those with a lot of interests. they might not be mutual to mine, but it at least shows the span of their knowledge (and a stretch of their personality, most of the time). those with no interests could only talk about others and gossip. which was pretty exciting at first, but it grew exhaustingly annoying after a while.
17. in that note, i acquired a penchant for more nerdy people.
18. i met a liferuiner in november. he actually made me live MakeDamnSure for a good while. this is monumental for various reasons, particularly in that one really pleasant week.
19. i decided that my best skill was to criticise fucking everything and do nothing about it. however........
20. i have better grip on things now.

21. apology is not overrated.