too busy.

too busy for anything.
i dont want you one day to realize, everything's too late.
that your life goes right before your eyes.
you havent gotten the chance to stop and stare.
you were too busy for that, remember?

barely breathing.

falling apart. barely breathing. with a broken heart that's still beating.
in the pain, there's healing. in your name, i find meaning.
so im holding on. im barely holding on to you.
the broken locks were a warning, you got inside my head.
i tried my best to be guarded, but im an open book instead.

i still see your reflection inside my eyes. they're looking for purpose.
they're still looking for life.

im hanging on another day, just to see what you'll throw my way.
and im hanging on to the words you say.
you said that i will be okay.

i may have lost my way now.
i havent forgotten my way home.

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parts from Broken by Lifehouse. thank them for making the song and writing the lyrics.

i tried to call salvation, but regret was on the end of the line instead.

S.O.S. to anyone out there, please salvage me from the destructive qualitites of desperation and procrastination.

doug.

"be open minded, but not so much that your brain fell out." - Doug Robb.

officially still my first ever celeb crush. still strikingly gorgeous and talented as ever.

amuseMEnt

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the world is an amusement park.
our life is the ride we chose.

i've been having this bittersweet dilemma about roller coasters and carousels.
the adrenaline-pumping roller coaster, full of loops, ups, and downs. it always leaves you breathless, but you always come back wanting more.
the carousel, spinning round and round its pole, with tri-coloured horses marching up and down.
less thrill, but it never ceases to captivate you.

i chose the ferris wheel instead.
a bit more predictable than the roller coaster, but not as monotonous as the carousel.
the roller coasters are too fast to enjoy the view, blurs the view and confuses us. the carousels are way too subtle, too safe.

at least with the ferris wheel, we can stop and marvel at the view from above.
we can see the city lights burn.
if we're lucky, we can even see the sunset. the horizon.