Thursday, April 19, 2012

time for another dazed blogpost written at around 3 am.

these few weeks had been a bit just a tad bit different and difficult, but i managed to get by.
first of all, let me just announce that yes, vic, we are all selfish machines. but being selfish wont get you far.
i've been on this charade of "no-longer-wanting-to-be-a-nice-person-and-getting-all-stepped-on" but yeah.
the only reason things worked out for me in the end is because i WAS being a nice person and that people realised it ultimately. they always come back.
apologies arent the hardest thing to do, but rather acknowledging you made a mistake in the first place.
and sometimes, trying to fix things just isnt the brightest thing to do. sometimes, it only made them worse.
and i realised i shouldnt be too offended by things. i should've been more stoical, remember?
once you become stoical, you're indestructible.
and time heals. time heals quicker than betadine. the pain subsides.

right now, im juggling 3 books: Chuck Palahniuk's Fight Club, David Sedaris' Squirrel Seeks Chipmunk, and F. Scott Fitzgerald's The Great Gatsby.
and re-reading The Picture of Dorian Gray by the almighty Oscar Wilde.
next on my list:
Irvine Welsh's Trainspotting, Palahniuk's Damned, Snuff, and Choke, J. D. Salinger's the Catcher in the Rye, and more Sedaris. and probably, re-read the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
ah, books. good books open minds. i need to read more books. my mind could use more expanding, my vocabulary more enrichment.
all the interesting people are the ones who read.
if you dont read, you better start reading.

i am very preoccupied by this seemingly perfect guy in my lecture who looks as if he just walked out of a skateboarding magazine. stop it. stop being so perfect, rendering me stupid and hopeful that i might get to talk to you and actually start something.

perspectives, how very cheeky of you.
respect others' opinions, no matter how stupid they might be.

once you get through all of it, you will become stoical. indestructible.

if only im witty and charming, so that everything can go absolutely my way.

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