some thoughts about the year end

Well, time goes blazing by, much faster than expected.

In general, this year is a really big year for me;

turning 17. had a great 17th dinner with my friends. you'll only be 17 once. i dont care if I'm not yet legal, I love being 17.

graduating high school. finally i got to say goodbye to Laurensia, my second home for the last 13 years. although I hate some of the aspects in Loren, I found it even harder to not love my school. The teachers. And the friends. They've shaped me, each and every one of them. Definitely the best times of my life... so far ;)

coming to Australia, living in Melbourne alone, surviving through all the mishaps, learning mind-blowing stuffs in Trinity, making new friends... lucky me, to have met several exceptional ones. no longer regretting moving here.

staying through thick and thin. fighting to the very last drop of blood. on the verge of breakdown, but still willing to fight. i still keep my promise, planning to hold on to it as long as possible :)



those are the main events going on in this year. hence, i find this year a very important year for me, as it marks the end and beginning of the new chapters of the book.

And this year, I think i may have underwent significant changes. I'm trying to no longer hold on to the past so tight, even though they beg to be remembered and refuse to be forgotten. As much as we want to, we can't be stagnant. The rude, cruel show always goes on, it never stops for anyone. I just hope those changes are beneficial for me and those around me, and will be totally worth it in the end.

Finally, I'm happy to say that I'm ready, ready as I'll ever be, to welcome and embrace 2011. :)

happy 11.12.10!

im thinking, just thinking...

might have gotten a new best friend. and glad for it. :)


and happy birthday Zacky V!

101 random things.

its friday night, had a drink out with a companion (what he said lol), skipped dinner, was happy with yoghurt and apple but my tummy suddenly craves for some chocolate. you wimp. so anyway, in midst of this boredom:


WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage - iced chocolate with an ice cream topping :D

2. Last phone call - Cicil

3. Last text message – dad

4. Last song you listened to- Tell Me I'm A Wreck - Every Avenue

5. Last time you cried – cry, as in, tears falling down my eyes uncontrollably? A few weeks ago.



HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice – not yet

7. Been cheated on – I certainly hope not.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it – nope

9. Lost someone special  - Im thinking not.

10. Been depressed – yes.

11. Been drunk and threw up – not yet lol don’t want to


FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. BLACK!

13. Orange

14. White. Or Maroon. Or Blue. Not sure. Never sure.


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend - YEAPS bigtime

16. Fallen in love - definitely

17. Laughed until you cried – HELLS YEAH ROFLMAO

18. Met someone who changed you – haha yes, indeed.

19. Found out who your true friends were – sorta

20. Found out someone was talking about you – yes. Shitass.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list – haha yes

22. How many people on your friends list do you know – most of them

23. How many kids do you want to have – 2 or less

24. Do you have any pets – kois, maybe? in my home in Indo

25. Do you want to change your name – yes please. I know it’s not the best thing to do, but if I could, I would.

27. What time did you wake up today – 8.10 am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night – listening to the rain and drinking coffee.

30. Last time you saw your Mother - July

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life – several things, but nothing too major. I kinda like my life. haha

32. What are you listening to right now – Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom – lol just chatted with him 2 days ago

34. What's getting on your nerves right now – MANY.

35. Most visited web page – facebook, lamebook, my blog, youtube, weheartit, tumblr

36. Whats your real name – D.

37. Nicknames – D, denji, ferret, smarty, victim, perv (>> last one was totally untrue lol) and countless others

39. Zodiac sign - Capricorn

40. Male or female? - Female

41. Primary School – St. Laurensia

42. Middle (intermediate) School – St. Laurensia

43. Colleges - Trinity

44. Hair colour – black

45. Long or short - long

46. Perfume (current) – haven’t worn any for a while lol (but I shower. No need to freak out.)

47. Do you have a crush on someone – no, it’s definitely more than a crush.

48: What do you like about yourself? – I’m not a narcissist but I do have several features I’m proud of :D

49. Piercing - ears

50. Tattoos – I do wish for a sparrow tattoo

51. Righty or lefty - Righto

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery – appendicitis, 1^st grade

53. First piercing – ears, baby

54. First best friend – Steven! Where are you man?

55. First sport you joined – not sure…

56. First vacation – either Bali or Singapore. I forgot.



RIGHT NOW

59. Eating - strawberry yoghurt

60. Drinking – none

61. I'm about to - be (un)productive

62. Listening to - britrock

63. Waiting for – the world to change~



YOUR FUTURE

64. Want kids? – I guess

65. Want to get Married – hells yeah

66. Career – something I enjoy doing as well as rewarding and profitable. Preferably somewhere in the music, culinary, literary, and/or show business (not necessarily as the performer).


WHICH IS BETTER?

67. Lips or eyes – both!

68. Hugs or kisses - both

69. Shorter or taller – taller or at least the same height ;)

70. Older or Younger – older and more mature, but not way older

71. Romantic or spontaneous – romantically spontaneous

72. Smart, personality or good face – all three, of course

73. Sensitive or loud – sensitive but not over

74. Hook-up or relationship – relationship!

75. Trouble maker or hesitant – errr idk



HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger - nope

77. Drank hard liquor – ummm no

78. Lost glasses/contacts – yeh, miserable times

79. Sex on first date - nevereverever

80. Broken someone's heart - yeah

81. Had your own heart broken - yeah

82. Been arrested – no, not planning to be either

83. Turned someone down - yeah

84. Cried when someone died - definitely

85. Fallen for a friend – haha BIGTIME. 


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself - sometimes

87. Miracles – meh. maybe, maybe not...

88. Love at first sight – not really. That’s infatuation, not love…

89. Heaven – yeah, I guess

90. Santa Claus – haha not anymore

91. Kiss on the first date – depends on the sitcons lol

92. Angels - yes



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:


94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time – NO! haha

95. Did you sing today – I sing everyday if nothing’s wrong with my voice lol

96. Ever cheated on somebody – not exactly

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? – not sure

98. If you could pick a day from last year and re-live it, what would it be – MANY. CANT CHOOSE.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? – no, but I’m afraid of falling out of it.

100. Posting this as 100 truths – we’ll see ;)


okay, last random thing:

just beautiful. look at Lennon. its been 30 years, man.

CALL MY MOTHER!

drama. drama. drama night. it succeeded in drawing the july frast trackers even closer to each other.
we all did superb :D it was definitely a night that we'll never forget.

Backstab. Drama Group E.

Alex : "call my mother!"
F-ING EPIC.
if it wasnt him who said that, our play wouldnt be as awesome. he was the funniest. period.

the dramas are great; we dont have complicated storylines but we did great with the lights, setting, and the atmosphere. The other plays were about dancing, death personified, romance, and fairy tale. Mine was supposed to be a noir, murder-mystery drama.

anyone who wants to see the play, click here. but it's not HQ and it's from a handheld blackberry, so dont expect much.

in the play, i was the murderer. but i was the good guy. i killed Allan (Prof. Siegbert) for a good reason. or so i think. lol.

this week was also go-out week. we went to all these different places to eat out. My favorite was Lygon, of course. tuesday was Brunetti with Pinka and Corina (just went out with them earlier again there). On thursday, it was pizza night in Papa Gino's and dessert in Trevi with Corina and Cicil. And friday morning before drama was a trip to the city (thanks to Frank for no EAP class that day) with Allan and Cicil. Initally we only planned to go to Brother Baba Budan (nice coffee), but we ended up buying buns ($ 1.5 for a tiny pork bun is .. i cant even..) and ate in White Tomato. A Korean buffet lunch, which is too bad since I got stuffed before that -___- Saturdays was Ajisen Ramen.

Toblerone cheese cake. For 3 people.

and i bought a couple of clothes. see, with girls, they would totally be honest with you, but they could also be great persuaders :p

in conclusion, that week was really not good for my wallet. lol

btw, did i really change a lot? i dont think so. but if that's good, then i'll go with it :)

exactly.

i used to cry my eyes, my heart out... but i realized i cant cry anymore.
you can say im totally numbed.
but this doesnt really help. its overwhelming. its excruciating. but i cant... i just cant.
i cant let anything out. not anymore.
there used to be a heart-shaped object in the center of me. where is it now? can someone help me find it?

cheeks are constantly red. but i like it though.

what I've been doing lately:

the picture says it all.

should be doing:

 

2 days ago:

TRUE STORY.

currently liking and wanting:

rice wine and mishaps.

yeah. this is just.. something.
so i cooked rice 2 weeks ago and it turned watery before i finished it and stuff, and i was too lazy to wash it.
i opened the lid today.
a sudden, strong smell emerged. it honestly smelled.. different. peculiar.
it smelled like wine.

freaking wine.

*screaming profanities*

and after that, i immediately sprayed some glade. BAD IDEA.

i actually had to wash it using a scarf and putting it on my face like a cowboy. or a ninja.
....... im still amazed that rice can also undergo fermentation.
hmm. i still have a loaf of bread from 2 weeks ago. i keep forgetting to feed them to the birds. oh well.

other than rice wine, HOI essay went a bit better than expected, but still.
im NOT thrilled to see the literature essay topics tomorrow. AT ALL.
and media research about modern punk?
i can honestly say i love the topic, but im not looking forward to it. thanks to lack of good data.

*screaming more profanities*

gotta love the cover. he was sick. but awesome.

sons of anarchy, inspire me.