summer? SUMMAH?

summers arent supposed to be, like, 21 degrees during the day. but whatever, i like the cold.
quite an empty summer,  i say. some of my closest mates arent back here yet, i really miss them. but im alright, i have mates here too. but things just arent the same, huh?
especially that im only doing one subject, havent started on my assignment, and i havent gotten a job. im looking for one, i really hope i'll get one soon. these expenses on tickets, merch, and albums are making me worried.
i've spent almost 2 years here in melbourne, and you dont have to ask me how much i've changed. in good and bad ways. i feel weird.

i've grown smarter. and smart people are never too happy. im not saying im smart, but i havent been feeling too happy lately anyway. maybe that's why people choose to be ignorant. the truth, or our perception of it, can sometimes be too hard to handle. it's difficult not to be bitter when you know the ugly truth.
but wait, smart people arent simply those who know the truth. im just one of those people who can be bothered to think about things many people dont. and torturing myself for it. sweet misery. im licking my blood off my self-inflicted wounds. 

you wanna know the true colours of a person? screw up. fuck with them (metaphorically). see how they react. how far and quick they pull back all the nice words they mindlessly vomit. once a person compliments you too easily, one will take them back the same way. real compliments are hard to earn and sustain.

somebody should conduct a class in for people who are tired of shit. what kind of class would that be? the class where we discuss the annoying things in life and how to deal with it.

by the way, good to know you still care.

and it feels good to just gaze at your laptop screen while listening to la dispute when you have too much in your mind.